I shared this last Sunday morning with our church community, Evangel. Honestly, it feels almost too personal to throw out on the web, but here goes. The following is what I felt was a personal message for us from Jesus. Most of it I received in a "listening prayer" moment during men's early prayer a couple months ago, and some parts are taken directly from Revelation 2 and 3.
I believe that this letter reflects the heart of Jesus for our House in this season.
Allow yourself to hear what the Spirit is saying through these words, to you personally. Perhaps something here will trigger something in your own heart. Some of these words are very much for the whole house, and others are going to be for individuals on a more personal level. So put yourself in a place of being still and quiet before God, and allow Jesus to speak to You as you read thise letter:
A Letter to the House
I know all the things you do, and I have opened a door for you that no one can shut. You say you have little strength, yet you obeyed my word and did not deny me. Though you will be tested, remain faithful even when facing death, and I will give you the crown of life.
You have kept your faith simple and uncomplicated, childlike. You come to me, and you don't have to have it all figured out to surrender to me, to worship me. You simply come. I know your hidden fears, the heavy load you carry, and yet you still come, still follow, still risk. And I am pleased. In simplicity, you seek to love me with all your heart, and to love others the way I have loved you. Your love is beautiful.
You have been willing to risk it all. I know the cost of leaving your comfort behind when you walked away from the little Chapel that you had dwelled in for most of your life, and I honour your courage. I honour your willingness to take on strain, that my kingdom would advance and grow in breadth and depth in Fort St. john. You are among the “forceful” men and women who are laying ahold of my purposes in this day.
You have sacrificed for me, offered your lives as living sacrifices, and I declare they are pleasing to me, and I accept them. You have not withheld, even when the call came to sacrifice financially. You are waging war against the spirit of Mammon that pervades this culture, and actively seeking to give me Lordship over both your wealth and your money.
You have welcomed me to work among you, with nothing held back.You have opened the door to My Spirit, unfettered and free, with all of the limits off. You have thrown out the red carpet that I might walk into the most intimate, private places of your lives.
And yet I have some complaints against you.
You don’t love me as you did at first! Look how far you fallen from your first love! Turn back to me and work as you did at first. (2:5) Yes, you serve me with your actions, but often with hearts that are somewhere else, and far from Me. I don't want your service. I want your heart. And when we are together, of One Spirit, you will serve me with gladness. But know that I want your heart. I want friendship, yes friendship with you. Not obligation. Not ritual. Not even faithfulness. I want your love. For you to love me. I would be the God up-close-and-personal, not the God-from-afar. I would be Your intimate Ally, closest Friend. Know me. Know me. Know ME. The whisper of my voice, the touch of my hand, the eye to eye connection reserved for kindred spirits.
You trust me in some things, but in so many others, especially where your 24/7, eating and drinking, working and playing, paying bills and earning a living are concerned…in these things, the basics of life, you often hold the reigns. I want to invade and rule in every area of your life. Don't leave me at the door when you go to work, change the diaper, enter the office, go to school, get in the truck, meet some friends. I want to be king over the city, over the peace, but by your actions you say that you don't want me to be. Leave well enough alone, you say, but I can't. I – just – can’t.
You refuse my rest. Yes, you confess that I am your one and only saviour, yet your frantic work, your ceaseless toil, your fervent devotion, your scheming and calculating, seem to indicate that you are trying to be your own saviour. Lay aside your work, lay aside your striving, and be at peace. Enter my rest. I am the One who corrects and disciplines everyone I love. Be diligent and turn from your indifference.
You are permitting areas of you life to remain unscathed by my Spirit. You have said that you will never change. That’s just the way I am. In some case you have actually tried to hide pieces of your life from the probing of my Spirit, and in the process soiled your white garments with evil deeds. Go back to what you first heard and believed, hold to it firmly and turn to Me again. Walk in the light, be clothed in white. I will be Lord of all of you, or lord of nothing.
Come to me and buy “gold” refined by fire, then you will be truly rich. Come to me and receive garments of righteousness, white and spotless, and be clothed with dignity. Come to me and let me anoint your eyes with salve, so that you could really see, and your ears so that you could hear, and your heart that you could feel.
To all who are victorious, who obey me to the very end, I will give authority in this Energetic City, the same authority I walked in when traversing the streets. Demons will flee, people will repent and be baptized, the sick will be healed and the dead will live.
Anyone who is willing to hear should listen to the Spirit and understand what Jesus is saying to the House.